PAH! PAH! PAH!
Finally things are getting better on my end, now that my doctor upgraded my meds and I can “SEE” my thoughts. For weeks it was becoming more and more a blur until I could no longer “see” and could only “feel”.
The thing about having this disorder is the danger of losing one’s perspective AND, becoming increasingly negative. The negativity is what really got to me and made me even more depressed and self-destructive not to mention being self-centered and feeling like a victim of circumstances. Getting out of that and back to my usual “crazy-fun” behavior, feels so much better. I’m still not fully healed, but at least I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
One thing for sure that helped me is this…making decisions about my life. Instead of being unsure and constantly trying to stick to a decision I made 10 years ago, I just simply needed to evolve into my current situation and move forward with it. So, deciding to let go of my old decisions and moving on into new ones that fits where I am today, has been a relief and I feel better about it as well.
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I’m glad ure feeling better! empowerment can make a huge difference.
Only you know what’s best for yourself… Not all professionals get it. wink. I am glad you are ok. Been having you on my mind alot…
Thanks Comrade and Kathleen!
Ya all will know when I’m sure of WHEN I will move west.
Yeah, empowerment really helps in making one feel better and more productive.
Great!!! I’m glad that you found a solution to make things better for you (upgraded meds).
You must be very happy right now in being able to be your crazy self again, smile!
It made me wonder about the med upgrading part… different meds for different parts of life-years?
Andy thanks sooooo much!
I am kinda happy…but not fully myself. I could never be myself here at home because of my mother, who can’t seem to understand, nor accept who I am.It’s an ongoing struggle right now, with my self esteem at it’s lowest ever. Im just happy that I dont feel suicidal and lost anymore…that is the relief I have been seeking.
Andy…forgot to say….
I do wonder about the meds changing as we get older. Part of it could be because our bodies become use to it, and loses it’s effectiveness. So we have to change to continue to live a quality and positive life.