…to going to NAD. I have to go because of my job, but to tell the truth, im still uncomfy being around people, especially those stuck up snobs and creme de creme elitist. It’s such a pretend world, and for me to be in that only makes it harder for me to deal with myself. In other words, staying true to myself at the same time, putting on a heavily make-up face, smiling at certain jerks who don’t deserve my time, energy and presence. Sure I’m being arrogant about it, but gee, why do we have to pretend to like someone when we actually despite and for some, violently repulse them.

I try hard to be positive and just not let them get under my skin, however, sighhhhhh, they just do, I don’t really have anyone I can share my thoughts or repulsion if needed, simply to get it out in the open and out of my system.

I was never good at holding things inside of me. the longer they stay inside the more it festers and then in time it will explode. I’m trying, I’m really trying….

If anybody is reading this…come to the mental health workshop given by Wendy Lokinsky (sp) on Tuesday afternoon and intro yourself to a consumer there who will share 5 min on living with stigma.